UST Med experiences + my thank you’s = another super long entry..

Sleepy but I can’t sleep (uy..excited sa Biogyugan tomorrow)...I have a lot of things that I need to accomplish but I don’t know what to do first so instead of killing my time thinking, I’ll just try to write what is in my head..Few weeks ago, Dr. Dakkis during our biochem lecture told our section to write a journal everyday of what we feel about our school, our new experiences, etc. All we had to do is allot 15minutes each day... I doubt if there is anyone who is willing to do that. But since I have this free time and I’m totally not in the mood for studying, I will share as much as I can about what is going on inside my head...

Medicine is definitely not easy. I can’t believe I’m saying this at a very early stage. I mean I know it’s not easy but I didn’t know that it’ll be this difficult. I failed four exams already (2 of which are my anatomy practicals) and counting...  Before, I used to get confused how my elder sister could still afford to sleep even if she has exams the next day. Guess what, I’m doing the same thing or even worse. I sleep 8+ hours and I only study 2-3hours a day. I get so tired just listening to lectures that when I arrive home, all I can think of is SLEEP. I just don’t know how long I go on like this. I’m scared that one day I’ll realize that I’m already failing and that my grades are beyond repair. I also happen to be under almost all the terror facilitators (Dr. Co-Huy, Dr. Trinidad, Dra. Laygo & Dr. Regal minus Dr. Wonchai). I’m not saying they are not good because they are. The only problem is that you really have to come prepared in all the SGDs because they often ask questions that require application of the concepts you have learned from previous topics.

Getting sick is also not an option. I had flu and I don’t want that to happen to me again. It’s so hard going to class with runny and red nose, hoarse voice, puffy and teary eyes. But it’s all good now.

People close to me know that UST has always been my dream med school. I wanted to study med in UST ever since because I wanted to be where my “idol” uncle graduated. I also wanted to be where my ate is. Ateneo is a good school and the masters degree is really tempting but there are a lot of other things that I had to worry about especially the house where I will be staying if ever. UP is a really great school but I don’t belong there anymore. Sabi ko nga, bilib ako sa mga tao na nasa UP kasi I know they are really gifted but ayaw ko na..I want to have the private school treatment where I could see doctors really teaching students and I want to handle more modern equipments. The downside: I miss my friends. I’m still not used to not having them around. 

The bright side: I still have them and my family. We  usually have this Friday thing where we usually have dinner and update how each one of us is doing. I’m also thankful that a lot of people are helping me cope up with med school.

I’m so thankful for Patricia’s notes, books, samplexes, etc. Those things helped me a lot. Thank you Pat for the tips on how to handle each subject, faci, etc.

To Faye, thank you so much for being my friend and classmate. Without you, I would have felt so alienated and alone in our school. Sabi ko sa’yo Faye e. I’m not friendly.

To Chai and Ron, thank you so much for sharing your SGDs and tips. Or thank you for being in UST.

To Ross, thank you for inviting me always (except nung one time. )

To Reinzi, thank you for lending me your Moore, for sharing your Dev. Bio slides, for your birthday treat which I enjoyed so much.

To Rachelle Ean, thank you for the Aclands. Thank you for being my rant buddy. Thank you because even if we are not in the same school anymore, we still update each other... Miss ko na kayo ni Reinzi sobra.

To my Ate, thank you for saving me in Anatomy dissection and for saving me too in Physio SGDs.  I know I’m hard-headed and “pasaway” but you still keep helping me. Hindi mo ako matiis. =P Thank you Ikee. You are like my pseudo-kuya..Kahit inaaway mo ako parati, wala ka pa rin choice but to read my complaints and answer my unending questions.

Thank you Ate Aina, Kuya Ron, Ate Sam, Ate Sabby and Ate Shiela. Every time I see you ates & kuya in uste, natutuwa ako sobra. Feeling ko I’m not that alone. Ang konti kasi natin.

Thank you SecB med friends especially to my subsecmates (Juliet, Milrick, Hector, Boss, Jam, Justine, Pru, Espie, Mitzy, Mike, Camile,Ardee, Alfred, Ice, Reg, Christian, Sam, Ces, Cena & Sexy BJ). Thank you for making me sane. I hope to spend more time with you guys and discover friendship worth treasuring for a lifetime.

Thank you Tito Albert for helping me in our gastro case discussion. The book you referred to me really helped. I hope I could still approach you anytime and that you would still be willing to help in spite of your very busy schedule. Thank you pala Topher coz ikaw nagsearch and nagpaphotox. Libre pa..Hehe..

Thank you Nana, Ate Mai & Kuya Patric..I wouldn't be here without you guys. I miss you so much..

Thank you Mom also for helping me in our embryology (absent kasi ng absent sa class). Now I know how to compute for the expected date of delivery/birth of babies and determine their age of gestation. Thank you Steph for listening to your ditse whine every day. Thank you Moj for making me and Ate Mau stay at your condo for a week and for lending me your Smart Bro. Thank you Dad for being a good provider. I know it’s not easy that you have 3 med students and 1 engineering student to provide. I’m still a daddy’s girl no matter what... Most of all, I thank GOD for his unwavering love for me. I hope He’ll forever guide me to be the best doctor I can be.

There are a lot of people I would want to say thank you but it’ll probably take me forever. Sorry..

Now, I realized that there is no turning back. This is what I want. I just have to convince myself to work extra hard to accomplish my lifelong dream. And oh, wish me luck sa med.

Screwed...

Now, I can definitely say my med future is screwed. I woke up early this morning (530am) to prepare for my Ateneo interview. I was so excited and anxious before the said interview. But all these feelings changed after..I felt like an idiot.. I was pissed and disappointed..

If I could only be that blunt to one of doctors in the panel and tell her “please don’t put words in my mouth”, I would have done that.. The interview ended with me having left with very little patience. If that interview would have gone longer, then I would have probably lost my cool. She was also very persistent(not in a good way) in asking “irrelevant” questions that it made my hackles rise. At the beginning, it was okay...But the moment I knew she isn’t going to stop, I just felt my blood rising.. I was mad. Example: She asked me if I considered the possibility that none of my friends get accepted in Ateneo and at the same time I will be a complete stranger in their school. I said no. I added that I’m very optimistic that my friends and I will be accepted. She asked me why not. Then, I said because they are better than me. She asked again what if the situation was already there. Then I said I just have to accept it but I’m still hoping that day wouldn’t happen. Then she asked again the same question. Then I answered. Then she asked again. But I really didn’t care that much because I was already kind of pissed at her. So many questions with same subject = annoying. I mean it. Who says interviewers are nice? Hehe… I felt like a retard being asked the same question over and over. Did I mention that I had to speak straight English? Plus the other interviewer happened to be the emcee during the ASMPH open house. Remember Dr. Harry? He just happens to be a Philippine Science High School and UPCM intarmed graduate… Very intimidating.

Sorry..I'm ranting again.. Just venting out my frustrations for me to feel better.. Besides, they say writing is therapeutic..Hehe.. =)

Assessing my life now that I’m in my senior year in college and etc…

Now that I’m in my senior year, I definitely have more responsibilities. First of is my duties as an elder sister. I’m not the eldest but I had perform some of my Ate Mau’s duties since she also has to juggle med school with her reviews for her licensure exam this coming August. And since my parents do not usually live with us, we have to fulfill what parents usually do. Those duties include budgeting, deciding what food will be cooked for the day, requesting the helpers to clean this and that, ensuring that supplies like laundry soap, bath soap, groceries would last for the entire week and that all bills are paid, checking if my brother’s things are packed and then driving from our house to Diliman to send those things, driving again and running errands for my mom like buying books for my youngest sister since it isn’t available in Butuan, etc… Fulfilling these tasks isn’t easy and it made me appreciate my parents more especially my mom. This also serves as my warning that having a family of my own at young age isn’t easy.

Second of is my duties as a student most specifically as a thesis partner to Rachelle. Yup. Thesis proposal is driving Rachelle and I nuts. It’s hard that we have so many ideas but every time we present it to our professors, there are a lot of things that needs to be changed. Thesis proposal involves a lot of time for research, for consultation, and for deciding which is which, not to mention that it’s draining our money since we need a lot of ink and paper to print our drafts. I just hope that we would be able to defend our proposal and that ‘hindi kami magisa’ by the thesis committee especially our  adviser and readers. Anyways, I have to commend Rachelle for making most of our proposal and for always bugging me and for reminding me to do this and that.

Third of is my duties as a BIOMAS president. It kind of scares me to think that I have a lot of expectations to fulfill and I’m not even sure if ‘my administration’ have the capacity to surpass what our previous execoms had set. I’m just thankful that my co- execom, members, past execoms and members, and special mention (drumroll please) to Karen have been super supportive to our org. My THANK YOU goes to Faye, for always being there to help and relay messages to our co-execom; to Topher, for making all those letters and for taking care of our accreditation; to Au, for managing our fund-raising activities; to Ralph, for designing our layouts and for recruiting new members to join our org; for Bine and Puhla, for always updating our members with our activities; for Julian for making our flash presentation; to Karen (even if she is miles away) for helping us and sharing her ideas especially with the Harry Potter books; to past execoms for always being there when we need them; and to the members for still believing in our org, BIOMAS.

And since I believe that all work and no play makes Mita a dull girl, I spent a lot of free time watching movies and television series. It is now a MUST for me to watch at least one movie per week. There were a lot of movies worth watching for this season. List: Spiderman 3 (Gateway), Pirates of the Carribean: At World’s End (Gateway), Bordertown (G4), Ocean’s 13 (Gateway Platinum Cinema), Fantastic Four (Gateway Platinum Cinema), Transformers (Trinoma), Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (SM Imax). Upcoming movies: Bourne Ultimatum, Ratatouille, Disturbia and Evan Almighty.